| Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006 |
| 4:07 pm |
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| Tuesday, May 9th, 2006 |
| 6:18 pm |
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| Friday, April 28th, 2006 |
| 11:48 pm |
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| Tuesday, February 14th, 2006 |
| 6:19 pm |
ugh
i HATE TUESDAYS! so THIS tuesday my clutch finally screwed up to the point that i had to take my car to the shop and LEAVE IT THERE OVER NIGHT! ARGH... it almost caused me to rear end 2 people at lights and almost backed into someone while moving out of a parking spot. Guess i gotta insure the accord and register it if i dont get my Tiburon back tomorrow (which i havent done yet due to money issues.) And i feel like im coming down with a cold and i also left my paycheck in the car and the shop is already closed >.< I cant even go to church tonight cause dad has his car and bro has moms car and neither will be back till after 10 *sigh* Plus there is the fact that its the 14th of Feb... BIG WHOPTY-FRIGGEN-DO! Its not even a real holiday just a stupid day in Feb to slap me across the face and say "HAHA! your gonna spend it alone again!" F-YOU Feburary! and your stupid Valentiens day too! *end rant* ok i feel a lil better now. Current Mood:  sickCurrent Music: nothing cause my xmradio just went out! ARGH! |
| Sunday, February 5th, 2006 |
| 10:39 pm |
update after long while
ok i know i have not updated in a while but there is a good reason I SWEAR!!!! F I N A L F A N T A S Y 1 1!!!!!! has stolen my life again! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE EEEEEEEE!!!!!!! i love my monk :) just about to get samurai too, i just turned level 28 and have 5 million gil and chocobo and all airship passes YAY!!!! And jenny has been playing every once in a while too which is cool :) i got white mage to 21 also. ELVAAN RULES! Current Mood:  ecstatic |
| Friday, January 13th, 2006 |
| 1:02 am |
My life = FFXI
so for the last week ive been playing Final Fantasy 11 again.... and done more in a week than i did in 6 months when i first started playing :D which means ive already logged 74 hours of play in a week =)) HA! Current Mood: happy |
| Tuesday, December 20th, 2005 |
| 6:07 pm |
I HATE TUESDAYS!!!!
Everything bad always happens on tuesdays for me, either that or everything leads up to a tuesday! So today i was driving down 85s the sun was all in my eyes and i couldnt really see the speedo so i was just following this black sentra for about 20 miles and not really passing any traffic and not paying attention, then out of the blue a trooper pulls up behind me and flashes his lights.... i was doing fucking 80 in a 65 and didnt even realize it, ugh! so i got a ticket.... first...... god........... damn............... ticket! Current Mood:  F-ing Tuesdays |
| Sunday, December 18th, 2005 |
| 3:45 am |
AAARGHH the PAIN!!!!!
My friend evan came over today with his friend at like 5pm and its now 345am and he just left... we played like 5 hours straight of pump it up, ddr and karaoke revolution... fun times but im TOTALLY gonna be DEAD when i wake up, when i was playing ddr i played 11 HEAVY songs back to back to back to back! and it wasnt just the easy songs, im talking like each was over a 6 difficulty!!! OMG im gonna be sore as crap when i wake up! we played like 90-100 songs on pump and like 30 on ddr and karoke revolution for a couple hours too. tonight was awesome i had so much fun haha. And i made a B on "heaven - dj sammy" in heavy mode :D yay! I just hope my knee doesnt swell up like crazy again -_- Current Mood:  bouncyCurrent Music: madonna - hung up |
| Friday, December 9th, 2005 |
| 10:05 pm |
hehehe
I just got back from compusa to get a computer power supply for my car amp, i mean really? what kinda genius ACTUALLY puts those things in COMPUTERS lol. Oh yeah.... im NOT kidding by the way, there really is a 550 watt computer power supply hooked up to my 500 watt car amp which is powering my 12" sub next to the tv :D too bad the power supply looks like it puked its guts up all over the fireplace cause there are wires everywhere.... pretty, but SOUNDS good :D:D:D:D was a fun lil project to do lol Current Mood:  accomplishedCurrent Music: VNV Nation - Joy |
| Tuesday, November 29th, 2005 |
| 12:18 am |
weird
 You are Gothic. You are black and enjoy dark and deep things. Your Starbucks drink is an Expresso Machiatto. Actually that is my favorite drink, i just have the carmel frappucchino more often because the machiatto is like taking an iv drip of caffinee... weird... Current Mood:  tiredCurrent Music: vnv nation - rubicon |
| Thursday, November 10th, 2005 |
| 11:04 pm |
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| Monday, October 17th, 2005 |
| 9:05 pm |
Today = WORST day of my life Dont ask why! im done! ive had enough shit! *last entry to livejournal* Current Mood:  disappointed |
| Thursday, October 13th, 2005 |
| 7:07 pm |
New car.... well not "YET"
So i have been looking around for a used car that i can buy and that has these requirements: 1) MUST be able to take it off road 2) cheap 3) easy to maintain 4) good gas mileage 5) smaller the better 6) something no one else has 7) something i can make go fast so ive done some searching online with trucks and jeeps cause i want a vehicle that i can take to the mountains and take on some trails or just something "different" to drive around town in. At first i was thinking something along the lines of either a dodge dakota or ford ranger because both of those are small (relatively) for an off road truck... but i had the most random weird thought today... "WTF!!! i should get a VW DUNE BUGGY!!!!" omg omg omg omg im so saving up for one now! I think that will be my birthday present to my self lol (7 months from now *sob*) Also im gonna figure out how i can modify the front of the car to be a "trunk" thats big enough that i might be able to use it for work too. Current Mood:  giddyCurrent Music: DDR stuff |
| Wednesday, October 12th, 2005 |
| 3:14 pm |
Im getting a tattoo before i head to club tonight... yays! Current Mood: excitedCurrent Music: DDR - Drifting away |
| Friday, October 7th, 2005 |
| 11:19 pm |
| My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul |
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| lancer247 goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Cloud from FFVII. | | atomicaaron gives you 13 red-orange blueberry-flavoured pieces of bubblegum. | | awokenbymyfears gives you 13 light green lemon-flavoured gummy worms. | | boalboex tricks you! You get a dead frog. | | kimopupule tricks you! You lose 18 pieces of candy! | | smeradee gives you 5 tan peach-flavoured pieces of taffy. | | xandri gives you 3 yellow raspberry-flavoured wafers. | | lancer247 ends up with 16 pieces of candy, and a dead frog. | | Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern. |
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| Tuesday, October 4th, 2005 |
| 12:10 am |
self enlightenment? in a way?
I know everyone that i know has seen me in a... well a "not-me" state. Its like ive been a totally different person, in a bad sort of way. Ill admit that this has happened a couple times in the past but not often and when it has tragic stuff usually happened. I have never really THOUGHT about WHY i change like that sometimes till today. Something last night snapped when i was talking to Tiffany. Im not sure exactly what it was or why or how. After i gave Jaime a goodbye hug and just about started balling on her shoulder, i hopped in my car and i was just like "Whats wrong with me?" It was just a fleeting thought at the time but i have been thinking about it all damn day and all night last night. Bare with me here on my seemingly pointless rambling for now but it might make sense later but i doubt it unless you really think about it hard. Normally when you ask someone the question "What emotion is the opposite of love?" Most people would say hate but that isnt exactly true. FEAR is the opposite of hate! -Love can make the most feeble of men the bravest and strongest when they are doing something for love, yet the strongest and most powerful men can easily be turned into sobbing babies in the fetal position due to fear. -Love can make you look forward to spending another day on the earth even if it could be your last you would still be happy with what you did, but fear will wrap you up so much in the now that anything on the next day could seem inplausible and impossible no matter how simple the task. -Love can make you look past all of someones faults and see someone for who they really are and fear instilled through the unknown can cause a person to make judgments about someone even though they know nothing about them. I could keep adding more things to the list but i think everyone can name a couple of their own examples. When im talking about love i dont just mean the "oh i wanna marry you im in love" kinda love. Im talking about love in all of its forms, brotherly love, friend love, sig other love, unconditional and parental love. One of the most drastic parts about fear is that alot of people dont even realize they are affected by it, i sure wasnt able to most of the time. Fear is False Evidence Appearing Real. Someone could be totally scared about something thats not true and could never happen (horror movies are just a picture on a screen with sound but the effects to the viewers is real enough to stimulate a drastic response). The last couple weeks the fear has overtaken me and i "went to the dark side" i guess you could say and i made a mess out of everything. I guess i was scared of being alone the rest of my life and i panicked *points the the previous couple posts.* I was scared of something that was far from true and i went from my normally calm and cool "maybe next-time" attitude to "Mr.Spaztastic". I was just so scared to lose everyone that i blew up on like everyone and was a total emotional wreck. I was so scared that i would lose tiffany after i finally got her to notice me that she would just drop back out of my life. Ultimately it was that fear that caused me to bug the living hell out of her and i said some things to her that i didnt mean to at all. I have done that to everyone lately in some form or another, I just wish i realized what was happening to me BEFORE all the damage was done... Im going to take the next couple days to my self so if no one hears from me for a while i DIDNT go kill my self. I have a lot on my mind lately and i need to figure out what i can and cant take care of right now. I dont want this fear to overtake me again cause it hurt like everyone. If anyone feels compelled to call me go ahead im not doing the no calling thing cause i dont wanna talk, i just need to get some stuff straightened out before i become too social again. I love everyone out there, if anyone feels they know how to help feel free. Current Mood:  contemplative |
| Wednesday, September 28th, 2005 |
| 9:23 pm |
FUCK IT ALL! im done trying to go out of my way to try to be social. I do know one thing is for sure tho: i realized tonight that 2 girls that mean the world to me are pretty much gone and ive seen it happening for a while and just didnt want it to be true. Jaime, my best friend for years, barely even takes time to talk to me when im at club and i can never get a return call. And when ever ive made plans with her they always get canceled. We hung out like what? 3 times since jan? Then theres Tiffany... i dont know what the FUCK is going on with her! Ive been wanting to date her for about a year but shes probally just another chick that used me as a "weekend fling." We had a great weekend together and after she got home she has just been a bitch to me since then. Keep treating me the way you have been and ill never even consider you a friend! I liked you alot but i cant keep putting myself through all that pain all the time. Current Mood: pissed off |
| Sunday, September 25th, 2005 |
| 1:06 pm |
ugh
UGH!!!! thanks danny and im sorry val.... blah! Current Mood: sick |
| Thursday, September 22nd, 2005 |
| 7:13 pm |
...been a while
A long time ago i made a promise to my self to not use journal anymore but right now i dont care. The last 2 months have kinda been ok in the sense that i havent been injured or sick or anything like that... But you know what? most of my friendships have just sucked lately... i cant take it anymore! Everyone is always up set lately about something, like an omnious wallowing black cloud that infects anyone thats around me. I just want all my friends happy but its like when im around they are just upset. I offer everything that i can for everyone but no one ever takes... People dont call me when they say they will, plans almost always get canceled. I cant chase everyone down everyday just to say hi because even when i do call i always get weird tones. This wouldnt be that bad if it was only like 2, 3, or 4 people but its like my whole inner circle of friends and thats like 8 people. I usually work till 5 everyday and im always off weekends. But everyone always gives me the "we never hang out anymore" but im always just home wasting my evening away cause im getting tired of hunting everyone down all the time. But i constantly get the "we never hang out anymore" bit... WTF am i supposed to do??? And it doesnt help that i just hurt someone that i liked very much and would do anything for! ARGH! I wish i could just trade in my car for a one way ticket to japan and a place to stay for about 2 months so i can just live there and start everything all over from scratch... either that or ill just have to curl back up in my shell. Someone help me cause i dont want to do that at all...... Im only sad about the girl thing, but the rest im just fustrated with. Current Mood:  confused |
| Friday, November 26th, 2004 |
| 1:58 am |
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